“Analysis vs. Raw Defense”
Understanding cipher abbt understanding…in a lot of situations understanding is not the easiest destination to reach. This is especially evident when wisdom individuals within a cipher operate from completely different and opposing angles, even when attempting to advocate one common cause. I have seen this reality manifest itself as recently as last night. I had to build with my ole’ Earth regarding a couple of things relative to a project that she is helping me with. I had some specific ideas that I needed to run by her in order to guage how feasible the reality that I’m strivin’ to born will be, based on what I will need to do and what I will need her to do. Before we spoke, I thought things out from my perspective and hers so that it would be apparent that I was seeing the full 360 degrees of the cipher as opposed to just the angles that would benefit me and my agenda. As I made knowledge of my analysis born to her, she interrupted my wisdom, reduced it to a concise watered down chain of propositions, and expressed resentment toward me for having attempted to present my thoughts to her in such a thorough fashion.
There are specific reasons why this reaction was elicited. First of all, I highlighted a certain degree of dissatisfaction with the situation that I picked up from her, which she obviously felt was a fine mist that my third eye would hardly detect. It was at this point that her resistance to my wisdom began to manifest itself in multiple forms of what I draw up as mental savagery. The first form was denial. Regardless of the fact that she has shown me in detectable ways whether consciously or subconsciously that the situation is wearing on her, she immediately makes it seem like I’m speculating and she applies the “I never said that” defense. It’s not about what you say so much as it is about your ways and actions. If you have no issues with the situation then you should act accordingly. Don’t make it seem as if I’m seeing things that aren’t there when I pinpoint what I see, and strive to refine it in an effort to keep it from being problematic. This is the point of conversations where people tend to manipulate the situation in order to make themselves look good and make you look bad.
The second mentally savage act was to strip my wisdom of it’s analytical substance and reduce it to a basic list of desires, simply because she didn’t want to take the time to fully do the knowledge to my angle. Why would you give all you have and all within your power to see my graduation days and make me intelligent only to end up asking me to dumb down my wisdom as an adult? People do this type of savior he I square because they are mentally living a beast way of life. They would rather transform a conversation into a tit for tat pissing contest or debate than to engage in a civilized build rooted in knowledge, wisdom, understanding, culture and refinement. In other words, I should be smart when it’s convenient for you, and simple-minded when you would prefer that…lol.
Although we did arrive at an understanding it wasn’t a pleasant trip. Build powers are like vampires in that they have become so accustomed to life in the dark they run from light. I love my ole Earth dearly b.u.t. for all of her swiftness and the seasoning that her life experience has given her she will probably never come to realize the need to spend her remaining years studying so that she can clean herself up mentally.