Archive for October, 2011

A Matter of The Heart…

Posted: October 12, 2011 in Uncategorized



My life has recently undergone a drastic change. I’m single again. There’s no reason to reveal the secrets which represent the details of the split. Suffice it to say, the relationship reached it’s expiration date. Now that the wisdom of that cipher has been revealed, I’ve had a little over a week to draw it up and process the mental and emotional fallout. All things considered, I’m alright being firmly rooted in my determined idea to take the best part. Certainly there’s some pain and sadness buried there because the science of what we had was complicated. I went hard at our love like I went at the degrees when I got knowledge of self. I can honestly say I gave all I had and all within my power to make it work. I take solace in that as well as the fact that I was just and true. Along the way I made my share of miscalculations but my heart was always in the right place.

Equality means to be equal in everything self cipher I would be re miss if I didn’t acknowledge the effort the queen put forth. Do I think she gave all she had and all within her power? Now cipher. However, I know she did the best she could. There’s a difference if you draw it up. It would be impossible for me to quantify everything I feel right now because the sum is made up of so many moving parts. I think the most difficult part is coming to terms with the fact that the detachment process doesn’t happen over night. Those thoughts of the other person don’t immediately fade away. The feelings don’t instantaneously distill back from whence they came. On the contrary, they combine to cause an unsettling form of trouble within the righteous. I don’t care how wise you are or true and livin’ you claim to be, if you aren’t a bit off kilter after a breakup then you weren’t in that Mary J. “real love.” The root of civilation is in Arabia at the Holy City of Mecca where knowledge and wisdom of the original man first started when the planet was found. I’ve always looked to this passage from the culture degree for relationship symbolism. The original man and woman started out together and had to be in order for civilization to be fathered because she’s “a part” of him so ideally, they should never be “apart.” This is natural which is why we say that love is the highest form of understanding as manifested on the universal flag.

Let’s be clear, if a person says they’re not looking for a relationship they’re lying. It’s just a matter of how much effort they’re willing to put into making themselves available for the day when one comes along. As long as you’re not in a relationship there’s a part of you that’s missing. It’s something you yearn for, need, and want whether you know it or not. This is actual fact. Human beings are social creatures and we get a tremendous amount of emotional sustenance from one another. When we are deprived of it, we act other than our ownselves and studies show that we can mentally breakdown or even die.

The opposite end of the “single status” dichotomy is the uncertainty of it. I’m overcome with curiosity relative to what the next zig will bring. What will the next wisdom that I rock with look like? What will her current of air consist of? Will she desire to live out this culture? Who knows…the only way to find out is to step into the unknown. Ultimately, I have to establish equality between me, my knowledge wisdom cipher and wisdom culture cipher in order to make my circumference equal. My righteous brother told me I need to dial my magnetic back up now that I’m available again. The God was right and exact and I’m strivin’ to do just that. My attracting power will figure prominently in my ability to locate the other part of self. Love is a form of energy and therefore can neither be created nor destroyed. It can only change form or direction. That being said I won’t ever stop lovin’ the Queen. Hell, I still love the two that preceded her. They’ve all indelibly marked my Koran so I would never render the pages they occupy striken from the record. I’ve learned a tremendous amount from each of them.

This change was inevitable and I saw it comin’ from a mile away. Now that I’m in it’s midst my opinion of it is irrelevant. What matters is how I react and adapt to it. If I greet it with mathematics and calculate my way through it the universal justice will deal me what I’ve got comin’.

The heart is the antenna through which we receive emotional signals, and the medium through which we send them. Regardless of how logically our minds strive to process experiences and divert our attention from it’s presence and influence it’s still a vital part of who we are. When you love someone you give a part of your self to them. Said untertaking is very taxing. Regardless of whom or what you have to give something to get something. I’m steppin to the unknown to see what the next experiment with high explosives will yield. That’s what scientists do.



Murder the Devil…?

Posted: October 2, 2011 in Uncategorized


Within the philosophical paradigm of I-God culture we get a wealth of commentary on devil. Today’s degree in the 1-10 identifies him and points out the embodiment through which he is made manifest in his most natural state. In the 1-36 a pathological ground work is laid in which we see him transgressing against original people in ways that cause them to replicate the ill effects and habitually pass them from generation to generation. He gets us to love him yet gives us nothing. This equality degree is very telling because it illustrates the danger of “one-way” relationships. When you love someone the act of doing so constitutes giving of self. When that love is not returned then the party extending love is vulnerable and can easily be led in the wrong direction and used for a tool, and also, a slave. Mastering a person, or a people that love you when that love is not mutual is like taking candy from a baby. He teaches us how to eat the wrong foods which, in turn, causes us to act other than our own selves. We now see this recurring theme of vulnerability because anytime a person or a people acts other than self, they are susceptible to a host of different mental, physical, or emotional assailants. Con artists typically prey upon the elderly because they tend not to be as mentally sharp in their old age. As such, with a tight scam and a smooth pitch the con man can bleed them dry for thousands of dollars before they ever realize they’ve been had. A young street nigga strivin’ to make a name for himself in the hood is likely to be very eager to do some dirt in order to show his heart. Consequently, the older more seasoned gangstas can send them on virtually any type of mission before the kid ever gives a thought to the potential consequences of said action. Needless to say the devil, like Big Daddy Kane, is a smooth operator.

Our degrees include references to instances in which we tried to civilize and reform the devil but in each instance we were unsuccessful in said undertaking. Musa had a hard time because he ran into the science of savagery, which per the degree, means a person having lost the knowledge of self and who is consequently living a beast way of life. Let’s draw this up for a second. If a savage is a person who lives like a beast then for all intents and purposes he or she has become a beast. History has shown us that it is not wise for people to try and civilize beasts because it tends to end badly. Imagine trying to civilize or domesticate a lion that was raised in the jungles of Africa…good luck not getting chewed the fuck up. That lion has only known beast life from the time he was a cub so for you to think that you can get him to sit and rollover like a dog is to search for that which does not exist. As soon as he decides that he’s not feelin’ that shit your ass is out. The only difference between that lion and a human savage is the chance of recovery from mental death discussed in the knowledge understanding degree in the 1-40. However, the operative word being chance, we’re dealing with probability or likelihood. All mental death is not created equal so the probability of recovery depends upon the severity and type of issue in question.

Mathematics is a critical science of life because it involves solving problems. In a sense, the act of doing so is synonymous with dealing with devil. Before any problem can be solved the variables at hand have to be assessed. So when we prepare to confront a given devil we have to do so in accordance to a plan that is rooted in realism. The fact is, there are certain questions that must be answered in order to formulate said plan. What kind of devil is this? Do I have a realistic chance to take this devils head and if so, what tools will be required? If I attack it head on, who other than myself will be effected, how will they be effected, and are said effects worth subjecting these people to? If I can’t take it’s head directly what’s my alternative strategy to avoid falling victim? Depending on the situation, there could be numerous other questions that arise within the calculative process. Regardless to whom or what the key is realizing that the wisdom of the cipher is the truth on the square. In other words you can’t bullshit yourself. The calculative process must be one through which you analyze the situation for what it IS vs. what you want it to be. As long as this is the case then a solid solution can be manifested and applied.

The point I’m striving to drive home is that some devils can’t be murdered in the literal sense. 240 has so many X’s within it’s arsenal to throw that you are bound to run up on some that will beat you with many stripes repeatedly if confronted head on. There are those who can drink alcohol casually and those who can only go hard with it. For the latter, it’s best to just avoid drinking all together instead of experimenting with the same high explosives only to have the shit blow up in your face over and over again. Some people sell drugs for decades and never get caught, but statistics show that this represents the minority. The odds are a street nigga can’t cheat death or jail so it’s best to abide by the law in an effort to avoid them. Know this, I’m not just buildin’ out the side of my ass right now, I’m living this math in real time. Over the course of about the last culture years, I’ve been battling a devil that’s been stompin’ the fuck out of me. The ill part about it is I knew goin’ into the fight that I was outmatched but all I had was the limited knowledge of those early days. After countless mental beatings which make up the wisdom of living this reality out, I now understand FULLY, that I can’t take this anymore. In the best interest of the parties involved, namely my self, I have to take this devil off of my planet. Mind you, it will still exist because I can’t reform, civilize, or murder it which my 120 told me from the start. Regardless since the lessons are indeed a knowledge wisdom cipher I couldn’t attain the sight of mind I have now without having both the 1 and the 2.