My life has recently undergone a drastic change. I’m single again. There’s no reason to reveal the secrets which represent the details of the split. Suffice it to say, the relationship reached it’s expiration date. Now that the wisdom of that cipher has been revealed, I’ve had a little over a week to draw it up and process the mental and emotional fallout. All things considered, I’m alright being firmly rooted in my determined idea to take the best part. Certainly there’s some pain and sadness buried there because the science of what we had was complicated. I went hard at our love like I went at the degrees when I got knowledge of self. I can honestly say I gave all I had and all within my power to make it work. I take solace in that as well as the fact that I was just and true. Along the way I made my share of miscalculations but my heart was always in the right place.
Equality means to be equal in everything self cipher I would be re miss if I didn’t acknowledge the effort the queen put forth. Do I think she gave all she had and all within her power? Now cipher. However, I know she did the best she could. There’s a difference if you draw it up. It would be impossible for me to quantify everything I feel right now because the sum is made up of so many moving parts. I think the most difficult part is coming to terms with the fact that the detachment process doesn’t happen over night. Those thoughts of the other person don’t immediately fade away. The feelings don’t instantaneously distill back from whence they came. On the contrary, they combine to cause an unsettling form of trouble within the righteous. I don’t care how wise you are or true and livin’ you claim to be, if you aren’t a bit off kilter after a breakup then you weren’t in that Mary J. “real love.” The root of civilation is in Arabia at the Holy City of Mecca where knowledge and wisdom of the original man first started when the planet was found. I’ve always looked to this passage from the culture degree for relationship symbolism. The original man and woman started out together and had to be in order for civilization to be fathered because she’s “a part” of him so ideally, they should never be “apart.” This is natural which is why we say that love is the highest form of understanding as manifested on the universal flag.
Let’s be clear, if a person says they’re not looking for a relationship they’re lying. It’s just a matter of how much effort they’re willing to put into making themselves available for the day when one comes along. As long as you’re not in a relationship there’s a part of you that’s missing. It’s something you yearn for, need, and want whether you know it or not. This is actual fact. Human beings are social creatures and we get a tremendous amount of emotional sustenance from one another. When we are deprived of it, we act other than our ownselves and studies show that we can mentally breakdown or even die.
The opposite end of the “single status” dichotomy is the uncertainty of it. I’m overcome with curiosity relative to what the next zig will bring. What will the next wisdom that I rock with look like? What will her current of air consist of? Will she desire to live out this culture? Who knows…the only way to find out is to step into the unknown. Ultimately, I have to establish equality between me, my knowledge wisdom cipher and wisdom culture cipher in order to make my circumference equal. My righteous brother told me I need to dial my magnetic back up now that I’m available again. The God was right and exact and I’m strivin’ to do just that. My attracting power will figure prominently in my ability to locate the other part of self. Love is a form of energy and therefore can neither be created nor destroyed. It can only change form or direction. That being said I won’t ever stop lovin’ the Queen. Hell, I still love the two that preceded her. They’ve all indelibly marked my Koran so I would never render the pages they occupy striken from the record. I’ve learned a tremendous amount from each of them.
This change was inevitable and I saw it comin’ from a mile away. Now that I’m in it’s midst my opinion of it is irrelevant. What matters is how I react and adapt to it. If I greet it with mathematics and calculate my way through it the universal justice will deal me what I’ve got comin’.
The heart is the antenna through which we receive emotional signals, and the medium through which we send them. Regardless of how logically our minds strive to process experiences and divert our attention from it’s presence and influence it’s still a vital part of who we are. When you love someone you give a part of your self to them. Said untertaking is very taxing. Regardless of whom or what you have to give something to get something. I’m steppin to the unknown to see what the next experiment with high explosives will yield. That’s what scientists do.